Friday, August 27, 2010

New additions ...

here are some additions to the list from before ...

#29 Run 5km in Bridge to Brisbane - it was supposed to be 10km but I told my synchro girls that if they run with me I will sacrifice my 10 for 5 .... should be fun :-)
























#30 Get my nursing license transferred :-)

Process started Sept 2, 2010 ....we will have to wait and see what comes of it !



#31 Learn on song on a musical instrument - piano: Vietnamese School song


#32 finish my papers before the due date


#33 get a scooter


#34 this is a toughy - stop biting my nails (date: Dec 31, 2010)


#35 Swim a 2km ocean swim (or another 1km but MUCH faster)

Rock 2 rock


















#36 get active again


#37 taking a Global perspective - advocate towards MDG #5











Please visit and get on board ! This band-wagon is worth jumping in on !


WHO on Improving Maternal Health






Just cause I love this video :-)







#38 volunteer again


#39 visit Tasmania


#40 Sydney and Canberra with Natalie


#41 make a trip home (aka: where ever my parents are) once a year (no excuses)


#42 it's still half full :-)


#43 work as a nurse in Cambodia and Vietnam


#44 get moving


#45 stop being a wuss and 'man-up' to the cold showers in my QLD-house


#46 (when the waters are warmer (in Sept I hope) get out surfing once a week


#47 get back to photography


#48 take a life of a huntsman (just once, it's cruel otherwise) - not yet accomplished 0-2

















#49 read the list of books (from Julie's collection) over the head of my bed (6 more to go) then pick new ones from Julie's collection ...




#50 make time ...


#51 meet an innovator and a gentleman: Stiglitz




















#52 give ...this time to the kids in Fiji




















#53 hike




















#54 bake




















#55 Read: The Te of Piglet - Benjamin Hoff




<----- some would argue it's me :-) #56 sleep more :-) #57 make a funny face :-)















#58 become a veggie for a month (in support of my roommate)




















#59 see how long I can STAY a veggie (in support of Lacey and Karissa!)















2005 ?






















#60

Accomplishments so far ...

The resources are limited but the ideas are endless. The immediate responsibilities are calling yet all I can think about is how else to indulge in life's pleasures :-)

I am re-visiting the list to make sure I didn't miss any new ideas and check off those which are completed.


Australia/ New Zealand
1) Check out most of the East coast (Cairns to learn scuba diving)
2) Drive to Perth then to Darwin ----> Alice ---> Tazmania
3) Glacier climbing in NZ
4) watch an All Blacks home game
DONE 5) visit Fiji as a tourist
DONE 6) Learn how to surf - Noosa's main beach ....and I ride goofy if you are interested :-)


Other Travels:
7) work at the WHO (Geneva) - hmmm maybe .... still hesitant

8) Canadian cross country tour (once I'm back on home turf)

9) India for yoga lessons

10) India for cooking school

11) Cultures to experience from up close: Thailand, Indonesia, Malaysia, Japan

12) Back pack: Greece (Croatia), Italy, Morocco, Netherlands, France, Germany, Malta, Sweden (maybe more ?) - Roxy, you better be ready cause here I come :-)



Life interests:
13) publish a book (I have some ideas for the chapters now)

14) learn to play the guitar (lessons might start in Australia)- I did start, however, thanks to my Vietnamese roommate I can now play another song on the piano

15) Try to make as many ethnic foods as possible- curry (variety of colours), authentic stir-fries, Fanta-chicken (or Cola), cabbage rolls, a list of soups (egg, potato, veggie with broth, vaggie with cream), banana bread b/c it's my fave :-)

16) fly in a hot air balloon

17) volunteer at a community centre - this is my very next :-)

18) sing more, laugh more, dance (more if feet allows for)

19) love :-)

20) stay positive (more)

21) sit with Granny and talk (asap) - I will call her soon

22) own a specific car and motorcycle (won't elaborate on this because I do feel a sense of guilt for wanting these 2 things)

23) Reunite in Hawaii with the Guelph peeps at the age of 30



Career goals:
#7 - work at WHO (first, back to the roots)

24) one day, (sigh) work in a hospital again, anywhere ...

25) Develop policies which promote health and justice in the world - MDG #5

26) collaborate on an NGO mission

27) take a stand for health care by participating in a munk debate



Sport/ leisure activities:
27) score in water polo (on a break away) - polo is on hold at the moment :-)


28) possibly get involve in coaching synchro again - create, encourage, empower - This was a TRUE attempt however, due to politics and logistics beyond my control I have decided to end my synchro career here and now, it's been great to know synchro but I think 2010 is my official retiring year, unless I suddenly get a phone call .... then a few more months but by Dec I am done :-) (maybe it's for the better)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Summing up the 1st Q and looking on to the next...

It is 11:11 on Aug 22, exactly 49 minutes and 1 month away from entering my Q2 and what better way to avoid writing my major paper (which is due in 2 days) then to take some time and look back on Q1.

These Q's I'm talking about are life quarters. I can confidently say that I have had an amazing first quarter and if I were to make a basketball/water polo analogy here is what I would have say:

I owned the court/pool and gave it my all. I kept my eye on the prize and played this 1st quarter with all my heart in the game. Defensively, I choked at times and let the game have the best of me but I always knew to brush-away the disappointments and get my head back in the game. I payed close attention to some of the mistakes during this first quarter and tried my best to follow through with corrections learned form myself (while playing this game) and from people on the side lines: my #1 coach(es) (Mom and Dad), some of my teammates (my friends) and even from the on-lookers from the distance, cheering me on.

During the game, I visualized before I made each move. I was told that visualizing yourself doing something (not watching but rather being in the moment as you visualize the act) allows for your body to move some of your smaller muscle fibers into positions which are needed during a highly skillful act. An example for this is scoring. So, I visualized myself completing each shot I took on net, each stroke I pulled through the water, and each dribble towards the net (this took place off-court while at rest) in hope that my body will adjust. So once I was back on the court or in the water, it was my time to shine. My body, confident, as if I have done these skills before, I would try and charged at the net to score.

I did not score every time. Most times I didn't even make it half way to the net. But, because I was able to navigate my body and prepare it before hand, I was also able to correct mistakes faster during the game. I never made the same mistake twice on the court, but I definitely made lots of mistakes. They were always new and unique as my skill advanced to the next level. At times, this was very frustrating because I started to question my ability in perfecting my skills. However, as the quarter advanced I realized that perfection is not about doing everything right all the time. It's about experiences, good and bad, and the body saying: 'yup, done this before and this is what you should do in this case', it's being able to think on your feet when the situation gets stressful. This is called automatic movements, sub-conscious, and it's developed over time, or in my case, visualization would be another way to speed up the process. With time, dedication, patience and a lot of passion for the game I have been able to master the skills needed to get to the net and even score at times.

I never counted my goals/swish. I never had time to sit and watch the ball touch the net. Once I did, and my coach (my actual polo coach) yelled at me to "Get BACK ON D! What are you doing day-dreaming! And sure enough, the next minute the other team scored on us. After that, I never cared about my score, just shot, and sprint back to be ready on defense. See, being able to play both side of the court/pool is something I still have to develop. I don't know if I'll ever master this skill but I am getting better at it each day. I know what I need to do, but I'm not fast enough and skillful enough just yet. Also, at times I do get a little lazy and enjoy 'cherry-picking'. I mean, who doesn't like to sit back and enjoy a hard work's outcome.

It can't be always work work work. Instead, I know to pick my battles. I give it my all when I go to score on net, then take it easy to allow others to shine. I can't always be in the light. Plus, this way I can take a break while still in the game and re-charge my batteries. However, if I'm needed I am always there if a teammate needs me. So my head never takes a break and I always pay attention to what goes on around me.

Q1 has been definitely a fabulous way to start this game. I learned about myself as an athlete (person), got to know my team better and how we work best together, and got to develop my skills under various distractions. My coaches are the most supporting bunch ever and I am very lucky to have their knowledge and skill be passed onto me. It is comforting to know that they are not just there to discuss my performance but they are as excited about my success as I am.

To summarize the first quarter:

I feel that I played well, definitely have room for improvements but if I can keep this momentum going I am one happy camper. I have to pace myself and make sure that my energy doesn't run out in the second quarter since the crowd and my teammates are counting on me. I have to play smart and stay positive when things don't happen my way. To play well I have to focus and visualize my moves as they need to be performed and stop worrying on what I did wrong. For every mistake I do I have to remember the number of things I did correct. If I can keep this in my head I will have a similar second quarter or I could take Q1 and make Q2 even better.

Gosh, if I had time to translate everything I just said into real stories and memories I would be up all night and as you might recall from the introduction I have a major paper due in 48 hours. One of my life goals is to publish a book one day. Not for fame but for myself. I hope that time will slow down so I can spend some of my days typing out all the amazing experiences in Q1. I have to or else Q2 will fill up my brain and Q1 will be stored too far back in my memory bank lol.

I think that's all for now .... but this blog will have to be further expanded before this month expires.


xo
R :-)

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

a friend tells me ...

"Never let your memories be greater than your dreams." -uk



"Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear." -uk

Thursday, July 29, 2010

I believe She's amazing

From a friend ...to another, goes the ripple.

Check out this video... I just can't get enough of it!






Feels good right!

It is a video created at the Toronto Eaton Center and http://www.ibelieveshesamazing.com is where you can find out more information about the cause.


Now go on and make someone feel just as good !



Supporting cancer research in small ways ...

R :-)

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Sun-kissed in Noosa !

Things have been a little chaotic ever since I got back from Fiji ...but it all has been a fun-but-not-sure-how-to-explain type of disorder. My family would describe this as the usual me: the tornado has touched down and is on the move, but I would like to think of it as: me living it up ...because I can lol!

Moving beyond the sour-times, I have decided to take a trip back to Noosa since last time it was just a click, sleep, then heading back at 6am!

I felt that I needed to truly give Noosa a second try and stay over night or 3. It is quite a hike to this place but it's worth every minute. From the 1.5h train ride that takes you through the glass house mountains to the bus ride through the breath-taking vegetation (beautiful greens, banana trees, and of course as mention before: sugarcane !!!), and an amazing 5km walk between Marcus beach and Sunshine beach only to realize that the sun sets "Not on the water????!" heheh

Side note: I finally saw some sugarcane being sold at the Saturday market in Brissie! I think I'm saved.

Back to the sunset! As I am doing my 5km hike (surprised that I'm walking? didn't think so, but I had to get a candid-shot of Marcus beach, and I bet my bro doesn't even know I did this for him lol), the sun begins to set so in response I pick up the pase and start walking faster. As I'm doing my speed-walk (perfect biomechanics) with Gregory on my back (that's right, my bag has a name ...and no this time it was not me who decide on the name, it's just happen to be the brand I choose because the colour goes with my skin tone) the sun seemed to pick up a race with me. I can see Noosa head so I'm thinking "no worries, I can make it before sun set", however, the faster I walk the faster it becomes dark. Just for kicks, I even ease my strides and slow down ....but nope, it's getting dark ....and fast !

As time goes on I realize that I'm panting. I am now almost in a slow jogging-mode trying hard to get off the sands before Noosa head disappears in front. I also notice that the water seems awfully dark. Almost aerie. I always remember sunsets making me feel warm and fuzzy inside but this time I feel like I should be running in the opposite direction to the waves. What is different here ? Sun to my left and water on my right. Sun left, water ...right? hmmm

Omg ! Sunset is away from the water! Never before I have seen the water with dark shadows within the waves, like caves, inviting you in. Serious. The tops of the wake, foamy white, just like whipped cream, but underneath that aerie dark fold of the wave. I hope I'm not scaring people away as I'm describing this but it is definitely something one has to see and experience in person. These shadows come just before complete sundown. Once it's complete darkness you cannot see anything really, only hear the waves crashing, which I find soothing. But going back to just before sun down, the waves are a tease.

Of course my camera cannot capture these waves but then again maybe it's for the best. I'll let it tease you and maybe you come and see it for yourself :-)

Funny that I didn't notice this at Surfers, because thinking about this now, sun there also sets away from the water. However, the tall buildings and the distractions on the Gold Coast take away from the effect, so I believe.

I finally arrive to Sunshine beach and end up at the surfing club. There I get directed to the nearest hostel, but of course by this time I cannot tell the streets apart. So I aimlessly walk around till a lady says to me: "You look lost. I think you need a hostel, so come with me". Not to be frightened here, she was walking her cute dog and being a nice lady offering to help me. As we walk, she asks where I'm from and get talking a bit, and as we arrive to the hostel "Dolphin backpackers", she tells me that there is a city called Toronto in NSW and that's also where she was born. "What a small world", I say and thank her very much for the guidance. As always, I thank fate for being kind to me and for sending me a lady who was born in Toronto but not in Canada.
I think it's cute !

And then I thank Karma (again) for taking me to a place where there is a Buddha statue greeting me :-) I have found Zen away from my zen (called home)

As I often do, I catch myself smiling and thinking to myself: of all the backpackers, I found the one that resembles (possibly) Indonesia. It's green, it's quiet and it's where I'm going to spend 3 nights (I got a deal if I stayed 3 nights lol).

It's funny because (having no plans) a lot ends up happening in the next few days ...but all is great :-)

First night I'm there, I get rid of my things, and head to the front desk to ask about surfing. I learn that the board rental is free and I am told that there are 2 guys who work at the hostel and could possibly take me out in the morning ...I just have to go and ask them. One of the guys, as he's jamming on his guitar, talks to me and says that he has to work tomorrow, but we end up chatting for a while anyways. Then his friend comes for a visit, a girl who's from Montreal, and we end up making plans for the next day to go and catch some waves. And finally, one more guy joins us, to make it 4 and this sets off some amazing euchre games for the rest of the night! Good company, good chats, and of course since the ladies are winning, some great euchre playing !

It's 9am, and as promised, I am ready to head out with my board and meet up with this girl. I am pumped but do not have any expectations other than preparing for the cold water. It's sunny and I'm in the zone. I have visualized being on the board (and at times bailing in the waves just so it's not totally unexpected). I feel giddy inside and just wanting to run into the waves! As I meet up with my new friend she introduces me to her boarding buddies (who actually work at a surfing school and are about to start their first lessons for the day, jack pot!) They lend me a wet suite but it's actually so sunny that I'm sweating....for the first time since May!

I zip up, I grab my board (get a crash course on standing up) and off we go!

The next 3 hours just fly by. I am learning to balance on my own. Getting the feel for the board. Half-way through I switch my board with my friend b/c her's is wider and sure enough much easier to stand up on as a beginner. Up and down, and crash, and swim back, and paddle, and up and fall, and this goes on for about 3 hours. The sun is warm and the waves are just awesome. As times goes on my legs are tired, my arms are jelly, but I am soooooo close to standing up, so I keep going.

Finally, I call a break when the salt water makes my lips sting. Otherwise I would have kept on trying. My arms are heavy and my legs are on fire. Not my muscles but my skin. Oh ouch, I look down and just above my knees it's red and shinny where skin used to be. Honestly, I didn't even care b.c my adrenaline was still through the roof.

:-) <--- my sun-kissed face after surfing


I was so pumped and happy that another goal has been accomplished. But more happy that it felt as amazing as I have imagined it (even thought I said no expectations).

After the waves, we also checked out the National park, just a bit, near Tea Trees and it was breath taking. I'll have to go back to see the entire National park since I was told Koala's enjoy hanging out there in the wild.

At night, we all grabbed a few beers and hit the dance floor !


It's 6 am ! Oh god, I promised my new friend that I would make it to yoga. I must get up. A promise is a promise (hence why I never make promises so not sure what happened here).

I have the best yogi experience and start my morning off just amazing! But still feeling a little off from surfing the day before, I let my friend go surfing as I pass out and sleep on the sand. The best sleep I have had in a long time. The aerie waves are now sparkling in the sun this morning, and sunrise has never been so fabulous (but then again, I never make it to sunrise, and not sure if I will again lol). I feel like I'm at complete peace. My body still sore from surfing and now yoga, and I watch as about 30 people out on the water all trying to catch the best wave of the morning. My friend is also out there and if my arms didn't feel like they were rocks I would be out there with him. As he takes a break we chat, discuss life and its strange ways and continue to sleep on the warm sand.

As we see dolphins jumping and swimming around the surfers I think to my self: yup, this is for real. I'm having just the best morning ever (sore arms, back, and all)
:-)

The sun does end up fading today and so is my energy. I am pooped but still end up doing stuff during the day: lunch, shopping, etc..... chilling like it's my day job :-)
(who knows when I will have a chance to do nothing all day long)

On our last dinner with the gang, we end up cooking a feast and play one last awesome-female-dominated euchre :-)

My tan has faded but I have some marks left on my legs from surfing. I wish I could just pick up and head out to the water again but ....Monday is back to reality.

A winter break to remember: surf, sun, and sand :-)

Polish: Zycie jest piekne



R :-)
xo

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Canadian-invasion Fiji style :-)



After a fast and furious Fiji exploration what better way to spend one week than re-discovering Brissie and its near by exotic destinations with a friend from Fiji. A friendship created on sheer coincidence but the timing could not have been better !

From day 1 Fiji was an ultimate hit but the first round of troops were a little low on enthusiasm for travel. There was a little overcast but why should that stop us from having a ball. Well, whatever it was, the ball never happened. Until Day 2 when 2 Canadians meet me (another Canadian, and say what you want, I am one :-P ). Talk about right timing ! (it's not that Canucks are the only fun people, because as you might remember Day 1 started with 5 Germans, 2 Italians, and 2 from the Solomon islands and we had a ball !!!) But for some reason amongst the different nationalities us 3 were ready to try out just about everything.

So now, post-Fiji, I have unpacked, trying to get things done at home before it's time to get back on the road to Malaysia and Indonesia. Got my courses selected and paid for, all I have to do is enjoy my time at home and off we go !

Not so fast! A ring from a friend and I have the whole week planned for trips around Brissie. My friend from Fiji is coming for a week to visit and she's eager to discover. Not a problem.

Week's plan:
- no plan, do as much as we can and see as much as we want to

Dunzooo !

The results please:
- Mt Cootha
- Koala sanctuary
- Modern art gallery
- Botanical garden in the city
- Fortitude valley and everything it has to offer on a Sat night lol
- South bank in the city
- Surfers
- Byron (2 days)
- Noosa - Main beach only

I now have exactly 5 days to pack and figure out my trip that's coming up real soon :-)

What a week of adventures !!!

I have also realized how much I actually run and walk on a regular day. We had several 'running' jokes going where it was about me walking somewhere too far or running for the bus. Well, how else are you going to get anywhere if you don't run for the bus ???????? Other wise you waste your time waiting and wishing ... hahah little JJ in there :-)

So, back to me running. On one of our regular fast moving-day of adventures (probably on foot) we are to catch the last bus home and I tell my friend this: I won't ever make you run if you make this bus ! So we run from Roma St to stop 40 on Adelaide and catch the last bus. We were proud and she was to never run again no matter where we go. Until the next day, we are walking somewhere, and I catch my self sprinting away from my friend and then I stop, turn back around and walk with her the rest of the way to our destination.

HAHAH


It is so funny. Of course the first movie comes into my head as we are laughing at me is the one with Jim Carry called - Yes man. In this movie, his new girlfriend holds a running club in the early mornings where they also take photography. This is called a running photography club. Well that's all we needed to talk about, hahah we couldn't stop laughing at the though.


After making all these hilarious jokes about me one of our trips does become the exact photography club we have been laughing about. We are heading up to Noosa and we have no idea how long it actually takes. We haven't planned any of our road trips so why start now on our second last day. We take a long train ride then an even longer bus ride (On this bus ride I notice the beautiful vegetation of North QLD and ........ OMG it's sugar cane !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought I parted with sugar canes in Fiji but thanks to the northern climate of QLD I have been saved. I must go back) !

We get to Noosa at about 5 pm and sun sets at about hmmm 5:30 .....Main beach is 45 min walk from where we got dropped off in the village..... "let's start walking people" !!!!

HAHAHAH

We are walking through neighborhoods, trying to figure out how we are going to get back to Brissie for 10 am on Saturday morning since I have coaching to do !!! Ahhh ....the more we walk to more we realize that we are staying the night and that we have to figure out away to Brissie in the next few hours while the sun is still up. BUT WE STILL DON'T HAVE A SUNSET PICTURE......


so we walk ....starts raining ....... but we walk through it all, through a rainbow (I thought it was amazing) and walked all the way to the Main beach ..... there we took a picture of the sun-set and the beach... we started laughing ....turned around to walk back and figure out where we are going to sleep for the night ....and how we are going to get home in the AM !

Omg, too funny ! Looking back now that is. We ended up finding a backpackers waaaay back where we came from b/c the ones on Main beach were full. That was the least of our concern. The first bus is at 6 am ...leaving from Main beach...!!!

OMG, WE ARE WALKING AT 4 AM BACK TO THE BUS stop .... ahhhh ! hahahahha
(I offer to cab it ...but we both say ...what's the difference now, we have walked all week haha)




We make it back to Brissie on time! Saturday night when we go out with a few of my friends, everyone is laughing at me AGAIN ! Glad I can be so amusing for everyone hahahah omg too funny

What a true sport this girl! I officially feel terrible for being the worst tour guide of the week. But then again, when we both look back .... it was like Fiji all over again. HHAHA go-go-go every day ....we had good training.

All I can say is this: We had a fabulous week and for sure got all the pictures to prove it!

Great week lady and hope school goes well for you !!!!
If not get a transfer and move in lol


For everyone else readying this: if you are looking for the best tour experience- Brissie and 2 coasts in 7 days, with variety of exercises, call me :-)



Jokes, total jokes! hahaha

Where was I ....oh yes, OMG get packing, KL and Bali in T-5 !!!


R :-)

2 phone calls, one good juicy life -lesson

Phone call #1

July 14 @ 10 am and my phone rings. It's my travel buddy and she's telling me that the trip is off. Our flight leaves at 8 am on the 16th. Shit Renata, now figure this one out in the next 24 hours.

I hang up the phone, and head to the kitchen where my German friend is having breakfast. We met in Fiji and he is backpacking Oz. When he needed a place to stay, it was natural that I would offer a bed to stay a few nights. But I did not think that he will have to put up with my dilemma this morning. I am in the 'lost' zone: that's a place in my head where I smile and act normal but my head is processing all information 100x the speed of light. I am now googling in my brain: money, places to stay in Bali, my family, decisions, meeting friends at 12:30 for lunch as promised, getting my German friend to the bus station, my sheer existence and purpose in this world, etc. It's almost like a tsunami in my own head where everything I know and information I keep in there spills over my brain mass. The only difference is that I do not get a cooling effect from this experience. The opposite happens in fact. I produce heat (which is a nice feeling and something new when you live at Hawken Dr.) lol

10:30 am
Red in the face, I say morning to my friend. I tell him the news about my trip and he says: "aw that's bull-shit" in the best German accent. hahah I smile and said no worries, I will still go.


2:30 pm
Lunch with friends. Hours later we are all excited b/c Renata is going to KL and Bali alone!!! She can handle anything. My head is still flooded by the tsunami from the AM ....but the excitement and the encouraging words of friends make me think: "Comon Renata, you are old enough to travel alone. You got this. How hard can it be to travel in a high-security, annual terrorist attack-type of place, where westerners are hated dearly. A white-Caucasian female should have a blast, right?"

Wrong!

This thing called my gut, others call it instinct, and in nursing we calling ...hmmm I believe we called it nursing-instinct (it's something other than scientific evidence but gives you the appropriate and positive outcome) was turning and the shakes were coming on. This physiological response occurs to me when my body is trying to get my head to catch up and work together. My head tends to be a tad behind schedule at times. Not always, I mean, I have made it to the ripped year of 25 but at times I do get burned b/c the brain is lagging.

Something doesn't feel right here.

Each time something big happens (using a trip as an example) I start off thinking: ok this time I won't get my parents involved because they will get worried for me. And every time I thought this, it worked (this however occurs at a time when I am fully prepared, know everything about my trip, and my parents have only a few minutes to say bye, give me kisses and I'm gone with the wind). Another reason would be because my back-up plans did not involve anyone but myself and my own 'plan B's. However, in this case, my parents and some friends were going to be my back-up in case of disaster (now that my friend is out I did not have time to find info on anything, so if I was stuck they were it). If ANYTHING were to go wrong I don't think I could forgive myself (Ok, so remember, I know nothing about KL and Bali b/c I did not research anything about these places. Why? B/c my travel buddy said she's got it under control, and well, I believed her). I have a strong belief in making decisions and choices based on my own resources: money, time, energy, back-up plans, etc. I never go into something if I cannot fully commit to it ALONE (getting myself into and out of trouble). Since I have been providing for myself, my travels, my hobbies or anything I pay for for that matter is outside of what other people can afford to help me out with. Therefore, how could I ever expect someone else to help me out with my luxurious get-aways when something goes wrong. Unrealistic really.
(plus, it comes with being independent and getting used to enjoying luxurious get-aways before lol)


Overall, at 5pm I am still thinking that I am going. I have already made arrangements with another friend to get me to the airport and now I sit and wait for the parentals to call.

10 PM
I finally talk to mother and she's not happy. If you would know my childhood you would understand my mothers concerns. I do not look fro trouble, but trouble has had some close calls with me. So I listen like a good daughter should, and for the first time I felt the same scare my mother was feeling for me. Strange, is this something that comes with age?

I said one thing and one thing only. Call my brother please. Never in my 25 years have ever called on my brother for anything. We think very different. His answer was no, please do not go. I listened. Not because of him but because of what went through my head at that time: I knew that if I went to Bali it would require the whole family to worry. It would consume everyone even family in Romania. It would worry some friends but not much, however if I needed help it would put pressure on great friendships. My brother's no made me realize how much people actually care about me. Everyone who has been there for me, encouraged me to travel have wanted me to just sit this one out. I want to sit this one out for the sheer reason of me and my decision as well. I have to be happy with my choice and can't blame it on anyone else.

I feel very lucky to have such wonderful people in my life who care so much about me. Going to a silly 9-day trip with a possibility of something happening (even if nothing would have, just the sheer thought that something could) was not worth for putting these relationships on the line. In the long run, I want to build my relationship with my family and to this point I have put enough strain on these people. I am filled with adventure and ideas but never once considered others who worry for me. It feels amazing once you turn back and notice. And I think this was the right time to turn back.

I finally talk to my travel friend and we had a little tiff about what exactly happened. All day I was in the 'zone' but by this time I was furious. It has finally hit me (what is going on) and I now have the courage to explain my concerns. Life is difficult for her and I completely understand that. But just because my life is one dimensional (compared to her's) it does not mean that I can drop a few hundred dollars b/c her life is a mess right now. This sauga is still in the works and not sure what exactly will be resolved ...but IT WILL be resolved today.

I might lose a friend on this one ...but have gained a special lesson about relationships and listening to my instincts. When traveling, alone or with someone, there are people who worry for me. I don't think I will ever travel the same from now on. I now understand the responsibilities I have and owe to these people (who care for me) to make mature decisions about where I go and what I do. If I do not feel prepared for an adventure I will not attempt it because if anything were to happen the results effect everyone of these loving individuals.
(It took me 7 years of traveling to finally learn this lesson and I am very happy that I get away with only a few scrapes in Fiji hahah)



Phone call #2

July 15, and I feel like crap. I don't want to socialize with my German friend but I have to try and be nice. We chat in the morning while we have breakfast and then he's off on his adventures again. He's going to Byron and I wish I could go with him but I have the urge of going to campus and figuring out my life in the last week of holidays (school starts in full force the 26th).

As I'm walking to school my phone rings. Don't recognize the number but I'll answer just to see what is up. At first I think it's the phone company and I'm ready to hang up. Then the gentleman on the other end of the phone says something about Synchro ! OMG, it's the club president. We end up talking about stuff which have been bothering me and I have been worried about. There is the usual synchro politics and to be honest, after just 2 days of coaching I was ready to quit. I am just too fed up with BS and at this point I need zen in my life, over qualified or not. He called to explain his concerns with the out-going coach and that he wants me to take over the club. He has given me the ok from the exec and that everyone is behind me 100%

"everyone behind Renata 100%"

Is there a theme here :-)
I am back on cloud 9 and loving life !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am given full charge of the club and the teams. I am going to be coaching both Wed and Sat. And because I am not going on this trip anymore I will be around to get involved much more and get the ball rolling for the Oct 1st competition. Talk about a phone call from out-a space :-)

I have said this oh 100 times if not more and could keep repeating myself over and over: but I am one lucky girl! I don't know how but I have no control over my life yet it is the BEST life for me :-) I don't organize much but something always happens for my benefit.

"everything coming-up Renata" - is also my favourite quote I learned from someone, and I think it's the most appropriate at this time.

2 phone calls and one life-lesson later, I am back on track and loving how busy I am :-)
(now I just need a little karma in my career and can't ask for more)

I think that's all I can explain for now...

Chee with Suay Nqam (life is beautiful) - this is in Thai thanks to my lovely friend who brought this to me from her trip in Thailand !!!

xoxox
R :-)

home away from home

Trying something new.

A friend asked me to house sit for a few days and feed their cute pus-pus while they are away. I said sure thing! I have been needing a pet-fix (miss my little tom-cat Sergio) and what better way then to take care of someone's cat for a little while. He will give me just enough attention I need right now :-)

The cozy heated little home was a zen. I was watching TV as my new little furry friend purred and massaged his claws as his sitting on me. Peaceful and warm. This cat reminded me of Sergio so much. He rolled around in your lap when petting his belly, he liked to massage your tummy before curling into your lap for a snooze. Oh, now I miss my little guy ! This little fella however was only half the size of Sergio. Much easier to pick up and hold in your lap. Sergio has outgrown his owners lol..... Mom, let's put him back on your amazing diet. ha !

It was fun to have a place to myself however, I wouldn't change having a roommate for now :-)
We have some pretty good jamming sessions on the piano now and then. (Even though a little puppy for a few months 'would' be fun to have around lol)


Joking landlords !

xo

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Chilly in Brissy - June 28th marks the coldest day since this time last year

To all those non-believers and believers who say I am too soft:

Yes, I am Canadian, and yes I do know what -30 degrees feels like in a heated car, with warm clothes on and while being in an insulated house (heater cranked to 25+). But I never imagined what an Oz winter 'could' be like.

Some of my dear Canadian friends who have paid a visit to Oz before me (and have stayed for months at a time) had this to say: "Pack for a hot climate, and in winter you will need a few sweaters but nothing major". "Winter weather in the day time is never less than 15-20 degrees". With this in my mind I think to myself: oh, great, I will wear thongs (aka: flip-flops) and swim wear throughout the year !!! (Good-bye to all my knitted sweaters and scarfs, since you won't be needed in Oz)

Not quite.

This is what I wear on an average day when staying indoors/ to bed:
(Since June 28th till today, June 29th @ 9 am record cold reported in Queensland)
- undershirt
- long sleeves
- sweater
- Soccaroos scarf (warmer then all my other light scarves)
- yoga pants
- "Uggs" boots (when I get out of bed/shower)
- socks
- blanket wrapped around my body
- blanket under my duve
- duve
- hot beverage with me: tea or coffee or just plain hot water (with honey) to drink

(at times I would even sleep with my only jacket I have with me from home)


I have been dressing and drinking like this since the end of May and my finger tips can't seem to stay warm once my mug runs out. The weather is definitely something you have to experience in person. To bare the cold inside my house you must load on the clothes and when deciding to head outside you quickly rip off the layers and run out the door to stand under the sun.

Winter in QLD is comfortable. To say 'winter' and see the sun shining while flowers bloom is something I can (and already have) get used. However, at any time of the day, rain or shine, you enter 46 Hawken Dr. and you feel as if you have entered into a fridge. (This statement have been supported by Canadian and Australian and German friends of mine). I now understand the mechanism a 'Queenslander' house (homes typically built in this state of Australia are known for the amazing breeziness and the ability to stay cool in the warmest temperatures - and in my case, stays cold in the coolest temperatures as well !)

The first time I laid eyes on 46 Hawken I adored the place and felt a real connection to the unique zen throughout the house. In the first few months living here, I got a taste of the Ozi heat-wave but felt quite comfortable both day and night in my breezy new place. Then, at the end of May (and to present), something very interesting occurred: each morning and each night it would get so cold that I find myself loading on the layers. Before, I used no covers, now I had 4 blankets and my only coat on me (and the list of other things mentioned above) in bed. Taking a shower when outside read single digits was the most awakening experience. "Ah, so maybe this is what it was like to shower in Romania (with no heat) while Ceausescu was in power". Mom has told me a few stories during those times and how food and electricity was also scares. For me, my only major challenge was keeping warm each morning and night.

Now, bring in the Uggs! First off, I would like to explain how intolerant I was of these Neanderthal-like foot-ware as it invaded UWO's (and most uni) undergraduate student population during my past studies. Uggs with tucked in lulu's (these are a brand of yoga pants) during the Canadian winter-slush seemed like it was the most posh look one can sport. However, times change and so has the weather in Brissie to something that requires little more then socks and pants. As I am comfortably writing this blog, I am wearing yoga pants (not naming the label) tucked into my brand new Uggs (not the real deal) and sending many thanks to whoever invented these boots. I still do not approve of them being worn during the Canadian snow season, but I now have an appreciation and an understanding why these were invented in Australia in the first place. Let's keep these cute and furry invention to those that need them the most :-)

(To be totally honest, none of my Ozi friends believe me when I tell them that Uggs in Canada are worn out in public. They actually smile at the thought that anyone would find such creation as a fashion statement. Uggs were invented to keep feet warm indoors in homes like the Queenslanders which are built for maximum air-cooling -effect! Oh, I also forgot to mention surfers who use Uggs to quickly warm up the toes after being in the water)

So there you have it folks. Winter in Oz during the day-time is cool and comfortable. Once the sun disappears though it's a whole different experience. Thanks to my old roommate, I now have a heater and happily enjoying my sauna hoping that the hydro bill won't be through the roof.

To try and conserve water and electricity, I started consuming over and beyond my normal intake of tea and coffee. As this continued I realized that dehydration have become a problem and that's when hot water with honey became the next best thing. Hot milk and hot cereal was added to the list when I realized that something has to give and eating or drinking anything cold would defeat the purpose of the hot shower taken a few minutes before hand. At this point yogurt and any other foods that are expected to be consumed cold has been cut out from my shopping list till warmer days :-) (this includes some fruits as well).

Again, this is not to discuss the problems that comes when living in a Queenlander during the cold winter months but rather document how well humans are able to adapt to their environment when the need arises. I am loving my little home on Hawken and would not trade this place for anything ....but the warm-days are welcomed any day now.


Che-che-cheers,

R :-)

Monday, June 28, 2010

What do you think ?

Hey to all my dedicated readers !

I thought it was time to up-grade my blog and try out a new look. I have added my Dad's pictures and I have also added some of the music I listen to now and then. I have noticed that youtube post music that I did not select so it is only a trial run. I have selected a few artist who play folk and soulful music. Anything other than that is not my selection.

I would like to ask you guys, if time permits, check out my blog and actively evaluate it. Please send me your feedback and let me know if you like the old set up, or you enjoy the new set up but maybe you prefer a different colour scheme. Anything that comes to mind will be greatly appreciated.

Thanks again for keeping up with my stories! It means so much to me :-)

xo
R :-)

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Life goal #5: visit Fiji - June 15-22


E vinaka tu na Bula in Fiji (Life is beautiful in Fiji) !!!

(...and since 40% of the population is made up of Indian - Hindi: Gindigi a-chai, now this might be a Fiji-Indian combination???)

Bula! Bula! Everyone,

Welcome back to my blog. A new destination deserves a new blog entry, introducing you to an exciting Fijian culture and my fascination with this exotic destination.

I have longed for a Fiji-getaway since I was 15 years old. Back then, it was the captivating waves and white sands that caught my attention while dreaming that one day I will be ripping through the waves on the beaches of Fiji. (Now that I’m in Oz, learning to surf has been put on hold again since school started but I have a feeling that my travel buddy for Bali will get me started with the basics. My swimming skills are fading so I have to get going on this.)

Besides my fascination with Fiji’s aquatic life I have been curious to see what their culture has to offer, everything from food, family and friends. I knew almost nothing about Fiji’s history before heading over last week (completing school work 4 hours before my flight departure, plus in the last 10 years it was just that, a dream, never actually expecting to go one day. I booked my ticket during a mental break from one of my assignments lol. Planning is over rated these days. The think-and-book –a-trip method has been my way of doing business around here, but back to the story) however, for some reason I had heard about life on the islands before the 19th century. The Europeans visited the islands long ago (may I refer you to Wiki on this subject - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fiji) but stayed away in fear of being eaten for dinner. Fiji was one of the last islands to practice cannibalism till the 19th century, after that no exact data shows when the English men felt safe enough to mix and mingle with the Fijian crowd and consume their sweet tropical fruits!!!

Side note:
(Let me tell you something: I have never tried heroin before, and never will! Got it? BUT what I did try is sugar cane from a farm field where a nice farmer told us to “have as much as you want kids!” So we did! A guy from the Solomon Islands and a guy from Italy had it before, so they taught me how to peel and eat this stuff straight from the ground. It is sooo addictive. I have never had something so sweet and soooo juicy at once. During the entire trip I was wanting more. And the craziest part was that no other fruit tasted sweet to me after trying the sugar cane near Nadi. I am still craving it!)





So there you have it, at 15 I was dreaming about surfing and meeting people who used to eat humans for dinner. Can’t get more exotic then that! On the other hand, Fiji was one of those locations that felt like it was the farthest place on earth to visit for me, since I always lived near the Atlantic region. (I was a rebel, and to tell you a bit more about my way of thinking during my teen years, the following year - at age 16 - I got my tattoo – sorry Dad and thanks for forgiving me lol). At 17, I started playing rugby and the New Zealand, All Blacks became my role model for this sport however, Fiji’s team also had some of the best players (and still do). (As you can see, this tiny little island somehow always stayed in the back of my mind).

Mom would be happy to know, my plane departed at 9 AM (lucky #9) and I am watching soccer in Fiji by about 2 pm Fiji-time (2 hours ahead of Brissie-time I believe, however in Fiji, people are generally behind schedule aka: ‘Fiji-time’) !!! There are some really cool people in my dorm that evening but generally I was meeting great backpackers throughout my journey here.

Sun is shining and I start my ‘Feejee experience’ (feejeeexperience.com – Hula Loop) 4-day trip the next day at 8am. I could go and list everything we did, and I want to tell you everything, but this blog would run double over-time. I will try to tell you about the trip and my experiences at the same time and hope it will keep ya interested while you read on!

Before starting day 1 you must know: a) during my visit, I am postponing surfing and scuba again due to financial limitations, b) only visiting the main island in Fiji –Viti Levu, as I have been told that it is best of both worlds (mixing the past and present cultures). Oh and on last thing, even before my arrival I am aware that I have changed lots in the past 10 years, but I’m still just as excited to get this show on the road.


Experiencing Fiji through Remi’s skin


Arriving in Fiji, the landscape is just phenomenal from the plane. White sandy beaches, dark green mountains, and the most wonderful blue-green waters I have ever seen. As mentioned before I meet many people who arrived just a few days before me: Italy, Solomon, German, and well me (representing 3 continents). We get along great, watch some soccer (how did NZ score in the last second against Slovakia, still amazes me), learn how to peel and eat sugar cane, and stay up all night chatting.

Day 1 – With a busy day ahead, we are off to explore the south-west regions of Viti Levu. As we ride to each of our destination, the view is just breath taking. Everything from the farm fields to the mountains and the shaggy looking huts in between, create a view that feels unreal to the eyes at first (I have been exposed to exotic destinations through TV shows such as The Lonely Planet, but now I had to convince myself – just in the initial phase of the tour – that this was real and I was in fact trekking through rolling hills and endless fields of sugar cane). Lessons about Fiji’s culture were introduced just after lunch, where we got the full story about cannibalism amongst the people of the islands. Malomalo village during our visit was quiet since everyone was away at work and the children at school. The people have to work in order to put food on the table at dinner time but much different from what we call ‘work’. Farming is the primary income source for the villagers but it is also a way to survive each day. If people do not work then they will have nothing to eat that day, literally. We, on the other hand, have the luxury to pull something out from the freezer, heat up in the microwave and consume in 10 minutes. Way of life in the villages might seem old-fashion compared to our modern ways, but lots have changed over the years. Joe (our tour guide) introduced some of Fiji’s history which made us realize how different things were on this island. He took us to a chief’s house where ‘the rocks' or back then, sculls are half buried. These used to represent each victim consumed and it was also the location where the next individuals were sacrificed. As Joe talks about the traditions, everyone else is stunned and quiet. There was an eerie feeling amongst our group and we were lost for words when Joe finishes his story. He continues to describe each chief with significant stats based on how many human brains they have consumed. It almost felt like discussing hockey trading cards but with a stunned look on my face, the images in my head disturbed me a little. In Fiji, history cannot be changed, but the culture has evolved to represent similar ways to the west. There are no humans being consumed on the island or as we were told, anywhere in the world. I will have to Google this one up later. That evening we arrive to Mango Bay resort, my most favourite place on earth as of right now. The entire resort is located in a valley of a rain-forest that opens into a bay of white sand and teal-blue waters. Thanks to our tour guide, we win the trivia that night and enjoy a massive bucket of jungle juice (aka: sangria). This day/night was just too amazing (shopping, sand boarding, some history lessons, great food and friends, and Cava in my belly), what could possibly spoil this night? Oh, right. Spain losing to Switzerland while dominating the field. Not sure if the Spaniards remembered that it’s not a game of keep-away. To win: you have to score in the net as well.

Day 2 – “Leaving at 8:30am, No Fiji-time”, says Joe the night before, so we can leave and get to the waterfall on time. However, none of us had an alarm, or just did not hear it, because we left the resort after 9:30 I believe. Sega ne lequa (no worries) we will get there when we get there. It is cloudy and a little rainy, but I don’t expect for much sun in a rain-forest. As we start our walk, none of us have been told what to expect. Running shoes are a must but all our tour guides are walking bare foot. (Hmmmm, where are we going?) After crossing a bamboo bridge my brand new runners are stuck in red clay/mud (‘This is going to be one long walk’ - I think to myself). It is now full-on raining, and we are walking through the jungle, wading through rivers, climbing rocks, walking through tall grass (remember this one please), and anything else you can see in my pictures. At first, everyone is careful not to get wet, muddy, etc but within 15 min we realize that this is going to be a long hike and we need to keep up with the guides. I stop worrying about runners and hope that they will stay on my feet till the end of this adventure. (I wish they would let us go bare-foot, but then again, that might not work either) This is where I start collecting my victory scars. #1 – I fall hard as I wade through one of the rivers: bang my camera (stops working for half of the day) and cut my palm on a rock. #2 – at this time we do not know much about this tall grass, but supposedly it “bites back” later (this will be explained on day 3). At the falls, the scene is beautiful and the water is warm. A few jumps later it’s time to head back. Wait what: we are walking back the same way!!!? Half way through our walk back a boat picks us up (shady looking but it beats walking) and takes us back to the bus (we don’t even wait for the boat to stop once we see the shore, we just jump out and run for cover lol). Once we get to Uprising resort, we all attack the showers as we try to warm up and remove 10 lbs of clay from our shoes (Here we get upgraded to the huts ($200/night) b/c the dorm was full, and these showers I mentioned to you are outside of the hut and roofless. Here we had the 'world’s best shower' experience, if you can imagine. I have already decided that I want one in my house.) I then try to find a FirstAid kit in hope to get some gauze and clean my wounded hand. It is deep and filled with dirt. Gauze doesn’t exist in Fiji, so may I recommend taking your own kit when you go. No gauze, Sega ne lequa, I boil water and soak my hand to try and disinfect it (Next morning: my hand is painful, red and swollen but Sega ne lequa). The show must go on ...

(We took part in some activities at Uprising: lessons about coconuts, watched some warrior dances, and met up with some Canadians from Calgary who will be joining our bus for the rest of the trip)



Day 3 – Again, Joe says: “No Fiji-Time in the morning”, and instead of leaving at 7:30, we head out around 9 am. A few extra people wanted a ride into Suva, the capital city, but Sega, no worries! In Suva, unfortunately we cannot stay long; we only drive through the city and see some of the architecture and busy streets. One of the Canadians and I were discussing how much fun it would have been to attend uni in Fiji (the kava might get in the way of our studies though). As we are driving on we stop along the road buying fresh veggies and fruits for our dinner. We have decided to cook our own meal once we get to Volivoli, our last resort. Today we are supposed to do lots: visit a school, attend a kava ceremony and go rafting. But since we are running behind schedule, the school visit is rushed, the kava ceremony is ... well as awesome as the other 2 we have taken part in, and rafting is CANCELLED. Wait, what? We are not rafting? Hmmmm, this day is already a little disappointing. Not stopping in Suva was a little blah, but now we are missing out on another fun event. Oh well, we will go kayaking at Volivoli, as we decide (Nat and I). Back to the kids though, they were so excited to see us and wanted to tell us about everything at their school. Two girls, each grabbing my hand, start taking me away from the group. “Come, come, this is the grade one class!” – as they are pulling me along, but I convince them that maybe we should stick with everyone else. Once we catch up to everyone in the library, I ask the girls to show me their favourite books. The younger one looks at me and frowns and says: I don’t like reading. Hhahah so cute, but when the older girl picks a book, the little one also pick her favourite off the shelf. Talk about peer pressure. By this time we lose the group again, and I find myself in a class room full of boys, learning about Canada. As I walk by, they ask me: Where are you from? I don’t even finish saying, “Cana...”, one of the boys pull out a map and says: “Show us”. So I tell them about Toronto, and Vancouver (that’s what they were reading about at that time). I find the group again and join in for some songs and fun-time with everyone. In no time we are back on the road again. I thought the visit was too fast, but we had to make our next destinations. Kava ceremonies are great b/c once you have some kava, the day becomes much more relaxing. Kava is a drink made from the roots of this plant and consumed for its psychoactive properties: it makes you relax and makes you very happy. After the kava ceremony, we didn’t really care that rafting was cancelled. However, once we got to Volivoli a few of us did go kayaking in the bay, and watched the most amazing sunset. The night ended with our home-cooked dinner and a few too many Bitters, one of Fiji’s most popular beers.


Day 4 – The night before things were a little hectic, people having a few too many Bitter but nothing serious happens. However, the next morning we wake up to security and police waiting outside our dorm to talk to one of the girls who’s ipod went missing. I can hear another lady talking with the police and our tour guide is being questioned. Oh, no. Trip is delayed till they find out who was going through people’s bags the night before. (my ipod charger is gone missing, but I only realize this when I get back home and is already replaced) We are back on the road an hour behind schedule and minus our tour guide. We still have ways to driver, but without a tour guide the bus is quiet and lonely, even with 20 people sitting in the back. We cover each of our destinations and feast on some delicious Indian cuisine. At the end of our trip we head over to some hot springs and mud-baths before we get dropped off at the our final destination. The trip is over and we lost a tour-guide along the way but overall we all had a great time on Feejee-experience ! Now, we (the 3 Canadians) have a few days to chill on the sands and soak up the sun before heading back to Canberra, Sydney, and Brisbane.


Tall grass - I forgot to mention about the tall grass in Day 3. In the forest, there was a type of tall grass that people said it bites back. Sure enough, when we arrived to Volivoli, the girls who went on the trek the night before have developed an awful looking rash on our leg. Sure enough, it's the tall grass leaving a mark on us. It looked a little scary but by this point the journey was almost over and there wasn't much for us to do. I was hoping it will not get any worse in the next few days. I still have marks on my lower-leg, but thanks to the cold Brissie weather, I can cover them with my jeans. Not sure how much longer I will have these spots ... hopefully not much longer as I am going SURFING on Sunday !


My last few injuries - I also scraped off my knee and ankle when I missed a step in Volivoli. Finding gauze was impossible/non-existent, so I just let it bleed and heal on its own. Again, I still have these scars and they are still infected a little but hey, what better souvenirs to bring home than my exotic-scars from Fiji!


I usually prefer to experience new destinations each time I travel, but I have to be back to Fiji once more. I would like to visit the islands near Nadi next time and take advantage of scuba diving. I would also like to get my license for diving in Oz first so at my next visit I can experience the waters on my own !


These pictures do not do justice for the actual colours and experiences but it is better then having nothing at all. Enjoy and if you have any questions please send them my way.






































































































































































































































































The sunset in Fiji is like no other...it's a must see !


































xo
R :-)